Teenage Mistakes

She remembers that day

Every detail of it

Like how it rained at 4 o’clock

 

She was happy for you

She asked to spend time with you

She  wanted to see you smile

 

 

“I’m busy

 

But I have a gift for you…

Remember that thing you have been asking  for”

 

 

She was desperate

Only for you

 

You said it was the best gift ever

 

Bruising

Bleeding

Soreness

 

You still didn’t love her

She wasn’t good enough

 

Her body still trembles at the touch of someone else

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Miles Away

Painful goodbyes

Seven hour difference

Eight-month countdown

Fights and tears

Lack of affection

Fear of betrayal

Frustration

Distance frustration

 

But that does not ruin relationships

Distance does not last forever

 

Happiness and laughter

The long Skype calls

Appreciation of presence

Honesty

Commitment

Intimacy

Love You do not have to see someone everyday to be in love.

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Coming Home

 

It was an adrenaline rush

Heart beating faster

Chills running down my spine

As if electricity was going through my body

I did not know what was happening

Or what to say or do

Could not stop myself from smiling

But it felt like coming home

When for the very first time

He locked my palm in his

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Generation to Generation

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Years from now

You will be stronger

It will have shaped you

I’m not sure it will have ended

 

Years from now

You will have to seat your 5 year olds

And teach them the ugly truths of the world

They will have a lot of questions

Some you will not have answers to

 

Like how a system was created to be against them

But they were taught to believe it’s equal

 

Like how their culture mattered

But not their lives

 

How their faces become halloween costumes

But they weren’t allowed to wear them daily

 

So many questions,

But not enough answers

 

Years from then

They will be stronger

It will have shaped them

I’m not sure it will have ended

 

Years from then

They will seat their 5 year olds

And teach them the ugly truths of the world

They will be asked a lot of questions

Some they will not have answers to

The Storm

The sight of the dark sky

The puddles of stagnant water in the middle of the road

Cold air still rushing across

The sound of thunder rumbling right after

You can tell it’s been a heavy storm

It’s the most calming

We took a walk down the wet aisle

Hands entwined

Silent

It was a hard goodbye

But the smell of the earth after the rain

Calmed our pain

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7082 Miles

Today, I felt the miles

All the 7082 miles

It felt harder to get up

Because my bed felt different

The people around me

They all seemed new

I felt inferior

Much more than I usually do

My heart was heavy

Tears falling freely

I could hear her voice

His laughter

I could smell them

All six of them

Today, I longed for them

Much more than I usually do

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Loving

 

           

What do you love most about me?

 

you loved my mind before you saw my face

you still do

you taught me to love myself before I loved you

I should have started with this

you make love complicated

well, our love, which makes me crave it more

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It’s 3am

 

 

Goosebumps, heart pounding

Why are you reaching for air

 

How bad was your dream

Who died this time

Grab your phone

Check the time

 

It’s only 3am love,

 

Ohh wait, didn’t you take the pill

I guess I am stronger than it

 

It’s time to count down seconds

The sun is still hours away

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