I’m so lucky I get to call you my friend
and have the pleasure of getting to know you
I’m so blessed to experience your love
and to make amazing memories with you
I’m so grateful to have someone listen to my cries
and to share laughter with
I love you, my friend
I see you zoning out of conversations
Canceling more plans
Cutting more people off
I see your tears when you are alone
I see you sinking love,
I know you can’t believe it’s happening again
That someone would have to go through it twice
How cruel your body must be, not to have healed from it the first time
How sad it must be that your friends do not see your pain
I see how you are ruining yourself now for not healing well
Let yourself feel
Feel the pain, feel the love
Let your feelings breathe
Create an environment for them
Become friends with them
It’s the only way you can deal with them
Life doesn’t always go as planned. It’s messy, it’s good, then it’s good again. And if you don’t have the strength to handle the messy, you will lose it. It’s not easy, but you have to teach yourself every day that you can handle it. The messy, the messy is hard but you will get through it.
Fast connections don’t always mean great friendships
Similar interests sometimes lead to boring adventures
And maybe people are like magnets
Those with different interests take the extra time to understand each other
Hence more discoveries and great friendships
Cause two different lives are being intertwined
I dreamt about you yesterday
I still can’t believe you are gone
I can’t understand that you stopped breathing
That you had a burial
I’m still finding it hard to accept
I pray for you every day
It’s a perfect day,
You are making pancakes
The music is loud, a little too loud but you don’t care
because it’s a perfect day
Then you feel it
Your heart is racing
And the thoughts are back
You are on the floor
The pancakes are burning
But it’s a perfect day
The tears are flowing
Your heart is heavy
The pancakes are burning
The music is loud
You are crying
Everything hurts
It’s a perfect day
I knew her for 2 months
I knew you for 5 years
I felt comfortable
I could tell her anything
I didn’t feel comfortable, sometimes
I held back a lot
I knew her for 2 months
I knew you for 5 years
It’s not because you weren’t great,
It’s because I felt two different connections
I guess every friendship is different
It doesn’t mean I loved you any less,
Time doesn’t determine the strength of our friendships
I’m sorry I made you feel less than a friend
I love you
We spend so much time getting angry
Being proud, being petty
We spend so much time on stupid disagreements
“She told her but didn’t tell me”
“I texted her first the last time”
“You hugged her and not me”
So much time that could be used to make memories
Because we don’t really know if they will be around tomorrow
You only have one life
Tell them you love them
Repeat it every day, every week
You only have one life
Remind them how grateful you are to have them
Tell them you love them…
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